Baby number 3!
I am so happy to announce Me and Ben are expecting again. I can not believe it took first time. I am now 7 weeks. I wanted to wait until we got a bit further and had a scan to write this post. However it will not be published until later on when we announce the pregnancy after we are 24 weeks. This is due to us knowing how vunerable a pregnancy can be. After losing our son, at 16 weeks and the difficult pregnancy with Ariyah we do not feel right for everyone to know until we get past the safe gestational age, that medically and by law is counted as viability, which is 24 weeks, some hospitals will intervene just before.
Some people we are close with do know about the pregnancy, like best friends and some close family members. Those that are in our lives daily, whilst others will find out at different milestones. We plan that majority people will not know until 24 weeks and we have a baby shower, past 30 weeks or when the baby is actually born haha.
Due to covid in a sense we can keep the pregnancy hidden because we are all in lockdown, therefore we can't see anyone. Thus as my bump grows know one will see it, we can hide it on facetime. But then now covid has risen again and we are in lockdown it makes me more vunerable to the virus as my immune system is weaker, there is no real evidence if it effects the baby or pregnancy if I was to get the virus. But as precaution we are staying indoors and safe to protect us all.
The lockdown restrictions also mean Ben can not come to appointments or scans. He is currently only allowed to the 20 weeks one and if we book private ones. I did go for an early Scan, first time seeing our baby and he could not be there, which was horrible.
If you have read my last post your see I had very early signs that I was pregnant, I just had this feeling deep down that I was. We took a test at 8 days and there was a very faint line, but could have been to early. We then did another two days later and it was negative. I got dishearten and felt like I had made all the symptoms up in my head that I had driven myself mad. It was upsetting, the dizziness and nauseous I felt had stopped too so thought we were not pregnant.
Until the next day I just got the same werid tingling in my tummy and this feeling I was pregnant again. I had been have dreams too. I was so emotional that morning, our friend came over for early Xmas celebration on the 23rd with the kids, this was allowed due to being our support bubble. I could not eat anything or even drink, I had one slip of prosecco to celebrate and felt wrong to drink it.
I took another test and there it was straight away two lines. Still faint but it was there!
I did not believe it and had to call my friend up to check before I said anything to Ben. She saw it too, and it was darker. So we decided to surprise Ben.
She went down and told Ben I was just upset a about not being pregnant and needed some time. That I need ariyah to cuddle, so she sent ariyah up to me. I got a baby sleep suit which was Ariyah-mai's first baby one and the test. I got ariyah to go and give it to him while, we filmed it. He was so happy we hugged and cried.
It really was all to good to be true, our Christmas miracle. I took a digital one the next day, to be able to see the word 'pregnant' made it more real. I was so happy, but also it was also scary
Over the next few weeks, I was getting lots of cramps, pains in my right side, and bits of brown discharge. So I went to a&e, where I was sent to the early pregnancy unit to be checked over. They did my bloods and a scan.
The bloods showed my HCG levels had more then double from when the GP had taken them two days prior to confirm the pregnancy. They were actually really good levels. However due to being to early they could not see anything on the scan. There was a tiny sac but nothing in it. I knew I was early, about 5 weeks, So they rebooked bloods and a scan.
The bloods again went up after two days, two more days after that they more then doubled again and were at 10, 852 which for 5/6 weeks was really good.
I had a re scan at the hospital this time I saw baby, they are a tiny little white dot at the moment but was able to see the flicker of a heartbeat. Everything was all in place and looked great. The scan did show that I had a collapsed cyst on my right ovary which could explain the pain and spotting. As I had swabs done to and they we all clear of injection. I took a week of antibiotics just as precautions. We think that my cyst popping caused the pain and discharge which had no effect to the pregnancy at all which is even better news.
So now I just have to wait for our booking appointment in February and 12 weeks scan. So far everything is how it should be.
I am starting to get more nauseous and tired, I have not been sick yet, I'm sure it won't be long before sickness truly starts. It is like motion sickness where I am on a boat in the storm constantly. I am still get cramps and pully pains, while I am mainly just tired all the time. Ben is being amazing and giving me lots of rest.
This is also our Pot of Gold. (name for a baby that born after a rainbow baby) there a different names for baby's born when a baby was lost.
Baby meanings
Sunshine- is baby born before a loss
Angel- is a baby that's sadly dies (pregnancy, birth or young child)
Rainbow - is a baby born after a child loss
Pot of gold - is a baby born after a rainbow.
(written at 7 weeks)
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